I give up. On both sides.
- gmari .
About Me

- OGEE
- You gotta problem with me? Solve it. You think I'm trippin'? Tie my shoes. You can't stand me? Sit down. You cant face me? Turn around.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
mediocreattempts
I will probably do something stupid, but my heart will be in the right place.
I will probably do something crazy, but its all because im curious.
I will probably do something fucked, because its hit me hard.
I'll probably end up with the same results because I always do.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.
- gmari .
I will probably do something crazy, but its all because im curious.
I will probably do something fucked, because its hit me hard.
I'll probably end up with the same results because I always do.
Sometimes I wonder why I even bother.
- gmari .
Monday, April 27, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
well done
I haven't written in this for.. 3 days? So I think I should recap on what's been going on.. okay? Cool.
Thurs. April 23/09 - Last day before long ass weekend. Just wanted to go home and sleep, really.
It was the day I got my enormous headache and then you know, died when I got home.
I went straight to sleep to see if I could get rid of the pain if I didn't wake up for a while.
And boy was I wrong. It got worse, and my stomach was aching too.
I felt like throwing up everytime I moved. Incredible pain.
I didn't call my mom to get me medicine for like an hour, which was bad, cause I was suffering alot.
So I took my tylonol and all that mumbo jumbo, and felt better for friday.
Fri. April 24/09 - Jhulius' 18th birthday/dinner! And actually, a p.a. day.
Which was totally fucking awesome. Went to his dinner thing and everything was cool.
Didn't finish my burger, still was a bit sick from thursday, so I took like 3 bites and had like 5 fries.
Very sad considering the fact that I eat like a pig.
Brought Eunice, Nikka and Russell. Paid for Euni and Nikks, sooo, but all is well.
Took like no pictures, even though I planned to. Oh well, night school? Haha.
So, bought what I needed and got home at around 8 something, and got set for saturday.
Sat. April 25/09 - Tash and Stef's birthday party! Also, a celebration alone.
Oh well, was meant for only one, haha dry.. So, anyway. Friday night was killer.
On thursday, I might've died, but I was in excrutiating pain last night.
You have no idea. I had to sit UP instead of lie DOWN to feel slightly better, and I was STILL in pain.
I had to take more medicine to get the pain to stop.
So, met up with Becerra, Adam and Heather at Kennedy and bused to Tash's house.
Got there at 2 and party hearty for sooo long. It was fucking bomb.
I had sooo much fun. I don't remember lauging this hard on a weekend, in such a long ass time.
Got home at 9:30, and I'm good. So, weekend well spent? Indeed.
Sunday's my day to rest and work. Haha, yeah..
SOOOO, all in all, I'm living my life. Initially, up to my standards.
I'm getting my ass out and about like I was supposed to do like, what? A year ago?
I'm just fine. I think this whole fever, migrain and cramp business,
made me realize that I should not be in the house all the time.
I should be out alot more. And I'm damn proud I'm making out alive.
Even if it is alone :) lmao.. no emo movements! <3
- gmari .
Thurs. April 23/09 - Last day before long ass weekend. Just wanted to go home and sleep, really.
It was the day I got my enormous headache and then you know, died when I got home.
I went straight to sleep to see if I could get rid of the pain if I didn't wake up for a while.
And boy was I wrong. It got worse, and my stomach was aching too.
I felt like throwing up everytime I moved. Incredible pain.
I didn't call my mom to get me medicine for like an hour, which was bad, cause I was suffering alot.
So I took my tylonol and all that mumbo jumbo, and felt better for friday.
Fri. April 24/09 - Jhulius' 18th birthday/dinner! And actually, a p.a. day.
Which was totally fucking awesome. Went to his dinner thing and everything was cool.
Didn't finish my burger, still was a bit sick from thursday, so I took like 3 bites and had like 5 fries.
Very sad considering the fact that I eat like a pig.
Brought Eunice, Nikka and Russell. Paid for Euni and Nikks, sooo, but all is well.
Took like no pictures, even though I planned to. Oh well, night school? Haha.
So, bought what I needed and got home at around 8 something, and got set for saturday.
Sat. April 25/09 - Tash and Stef's birthday party! Also, a celebration alone.
Oh well, was meant for only one, haha dry.. So, anyway. Friday night was killer.
On thursday, I might've died, but I was in excrutiating pain last night.
You have no idea. I had to sit UP instead of lie DOWN to feel slightly better, and I was STILL in pain.
I had to take more medicine to get the pain to stop.
So, met up with Becerra, Adam and Heather at Kennedy and bused to Tash's house.
Got there at 2 and party hearty for sooo long. It was fucking bomb.
I had sooo much fun. I don't remember lauging this hard on a weekend, in such a long ass time.
Got home at 9:30, and I'm good. So, weekend well spent? Indeed.
Sunday's my day to rest and work. Haha, yeah..
SOOOO, all in all, I'm living my life. Initially, up to my standards.
I'm getting my ass out and about like I was supposed to do like, what? A year ago?
I'm just fine. I think this whole fever, migrain and cramp business,
made me realize that I should not be in the house all the time.
I should be out alot more. And I'm damn proud I'm making out alive.
Even if it is alone :) lmao.. no emo movements! <3
- gmari .
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
schoool is whack
So I'm in school right now. In Comtech class. My teacher isn't here and I'm bored out of my mind.
Since I didn't post anything yesterday, I'm posting now.
Let me tell you about last night..
I got pissed because I didn't get a 'well done' for the three classes I'm passing.
Nope. I get a 'do fucking better you failure'.
I'm not passing one, which is THIS class I'm in now,
but I'm working my ass off on other fucking subjects to pass them,
so I think I deserve a pat on my back.
Nah, instead I get a smack across my face.
Oh effing well.
I'm busy as hell this weekend.
At least I'm getting out of the house.
I can't wait til prom, which I still don't have a dress for.. OR A TICKET!
But I'm still going. I can't wait for friday or saturday.
Oh man, I getting so hyped.
Everything had better go well, or I'm totes getting in trouble and crying my ass off.
So yeah, I'm hyped on spending money on bitches I love.
Everything's going fine I guess.
I ain't mad at life, nah. Not right now.
I'm pretty content.
So, I'm gonna get back to writing my superfantastic story
and finishing my magazine cover for Cometch.
Don't get it twisted. Or, Don't twist, get it? HAHA.. shut up..
- gmari .
Since I didn't post anything yesterday, I'm posting now.
Let me tell you about last night..
I got pissed because I didn't get a 'well done' for the three classes I'm passing.
Nope. I get a 'do fucking better you failure'.
I'm not passing one, which is THIS class I'm in now,
but I'm working my ass off on other fucking subjects to pass them,
so I think I deserve a pat on my back.
Nah, instead I get a smack across my face.
Oh effing well.
I'm busy as hell this weekend.
At least I'm getting out of the house.
I can't wait til prom, which I still don't have a dress for.. OR A TICKET!
But I'm still going. I can't wait for friday or saturday.
Oh man, I getting so hyped.
Everything had better go well, or I'm totes getting in trouble and crying my ass off.
So yeah, I'm hyped on spending money on bitches I love.
Everything's going fine I guess.
I ain't mad at life, nah. Not right now.
I'm pretty content.
So, I'm gonna get back to writing my superfantastic story
and finishing my magazine cover for Cometch.
Don't get it twisted. Or, Don't twist, get it? HAHA.. shut up..
- gmari .
Monday, April 20, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
moderation
I'm tired. I've been working on alot it seems.
I've been sketching like crazy, writing songs,
focusing on work, looking for jobs,
chilling with friends and doing what I would normally not do.
It's kinda crazy, and it's making me exhausted.
I mean, I'm glad I'm getting my old habits back and everything,
but I didn't realize how much I gave up on. Damn, I really am lazy.
So here's the good news, I'm going to prom and I'm incredibly excited.
I know what colour dress I want and I know what I'm gonng do for my hair and make-up.
The only problem is.. I don't have the damn money,
which is why I'm taking so damn long to buy everything,
when in reality, prom is like.. a month away.
I shouldn't panic though.. I'm good at this last minute stuff.
Friday, I have so much to do..
and I cannot let anything stop me from doing it this time.
I'm happy with life right now.
Come on now, Angelica.. don't fuck this up..
- gmari .
I've been sketching like crazy, writing songs,
focusing on work, looking for jobs,
chilling with friends and doing what I would normally not do.
It's kinda crazy, and it's making me exhausted.
I mean, I'm glad I'm getting my old habits back and everything,
but I didn't realize how much I gave up on. Damn, I really am lazy.
So here's the good news, I'm going to prom and I'm incredibly excited.
I know what colour dress I want and I know what I'm gonng do for my hair and make-up.
The only problem is.. I don't have the damn money,
which is why I'm taking so damn long to buy everything,
when in reality, prom is like.. a month away.
I shouldn't panic though.. I'm good at this last minute stuff.
Friday, I have so much to do..
and I cannot let anything stop me from doing it this time.
I'm happy with life right now.
Come on now, Angelica.. don't fuck this up..
- gmari .
Saturday, April 18, 2009
reappearing
Today was really good.
Though what I thought would be done, didn't get done, I still had fun.
And my heart will never change, I know that for certain.
I'm happy.
Didn't get to write this yesterday, so,
happy belated 22nd to my Uncs and happy birthday to Amanda & Stefan!
- gmari .
Though what I thought would be done, didn't get done, I still had fun.
And my heart will never change, I know that for certain.
I'm happy.
Didn't get to write this yesterday, so,
happy belated 22nd to my Uncs and happy birthday to Amanda & Stefan!
- gmari .
Thursday, April 16, 2009
pure bliss
Today was a damn good day. I'm doing well in school?
English - 89%
Travel & Tourism - 61%
Religion - 79%
I'm not sure about my Comtech mark yet..
well, I don't remember it, actually.
So yeah, other than that,
I'm freakishly happy today, and I don't give damn.
Maaaaaaan... today just couldn't get any better.
I PROMISE, I'm getting sleep tonight. Swears.
- gmari .
English - 89%
Travel & Tourism - 61%
Religion - 79%
I'm not sure about my Comtech mark yet..
well, I don't remember it, actually.
So yeah, other than that,
I'm freakishly happy today, and I don't give damn.
Maaaaaaan... today just couldn't get any better.
I PROMISE, I'm getting sleep tonight. Swears.
- gmari .
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
snap?!
and just like that, satisfaction never felt so damn good.
So, in my comtech class there's this assignment that has to be done.
It's a magazine. For some reason, my creativity stopped today.
I think it was my lack of sleep.
How is it possible to only get 15 minutes of sleep and manage to stay
awake the whole day? I am superman, that's how. I think the only thing
that excited me all day long was the fact that I was amped about how angry
I was yesterday and that prom is coming soon. In 2 months to be exact.
I STILL DON'T HAVE A DRESS. I better not get last freakin' minute, or
I'm gonna cry. Well, probably not, but I will bitch =) Hysteria is the
BEST form of happiness. At least I think so...
Jobhunting soon! ..I promise :)
So that I can finally buy some shit from UrbanOutfitters (H)
- gmari .
So, in my comtech class there's this assignment that has to be done.
It's a magazine. For some reason, my creativity stopped today.
I think it was my lack of sleep.
How is it possible to only get 15 minutes of sleep and manage to stay
awake the whole day? I am superman, that's how. I think the only thing
that excited me all day long was the fact that I was amped about how angry
I was yesterday and that prom is coming soon. In 2 months to be exact.
I STILL DON'T HAVE A DRESS. I better not get last freakin' minute, or
I'm gonna cry. Well, probably not, but I will bitch =) Hysteria is the
BEST form of happiness. At least I think so...
Jobhunting soon! ..I promise :)
So that I can finally buy some shit from UrbanOutfitters (H)
- gmari .
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
lost visionaries
I have lost the mental capability to invision moments in a peferable order inside my head. in simple terms...
MY IMAGINATION IS GONE.
just like vodka at an alcoholic convention.
GONE.
- gmari .
MY IMAGINATION IS GONE.
just like vodka at an alcoholic convention.
GONE.
- gmari .
Sunday, April 12, 2009
pmallmaniacs
Today was my Pmall adventure with my godmother :D
Bought 4 things today with not my money :) (the best thing to spend)
- 2 pairs of earrings (2 for 20$)
- Paul Frank purse bag (23$)
- jacket sweater (22.20)
+ lunch & snacks
I think today was very benifical. Bonding, laughing and spending.
What a good way to live out a day. So, thus concludes what I did.
Thoughts? There was a few. I was totally getting into the whole,
dressing like a typical chinese person. Considering the fact that
I'm not chinese. Horrah? I also was hoping to bump into a few people,
but I only bumped into Ate Sam and Mark Gapas. Great. I'm a bit
over anxious for prom to start. The moment I talked about it with
my aunt, was when I started to think of what to wear. Then, who I
was going with. Bleh. Whatever happens, happens.
So, honestly, I need a damn job. I need damn money. I need, I need, I need.
Funny how I don't want things anymore. There's just a shitload of needing.
Here's another.. music. I think I need to lose myself in it. Only 'cause
music is just that damn awesome.
I think I should take up turntables again.. hmm..
- gmari .
Bought 4 things today with not my money :) (the best thing to spend)
- 2 pairs of earrings (2 for 20$)
- Paul Frank purse bag (23$)
- jacket sweater (22.20)
+ lunch & snacks
I think today was very benifical. Bonding, laughing and spending.
What a good way to live out a day. So, thus concludes what I did.
Thoughts? There was a few. I was totally getting into the whole,
dressing like a typical chinese person. Considering the fact that
I'm not chinese. Horrah? I also was hoping to bump into a few people,
but I only bumped into Ate Sam and Mark Gapas. Great. I'm a bit
over anxious for prom to start. The moment I talked about it with
my aunt, was when I started to think of what to wear. Then, who I
was going with. Bleh. Whatever happens, happens.
So, honestly, I need a damn job. I need damn money. I need, I need, I need.
Funny how I don't want things anymore. There's just a shitload of needing.
Here's another.. music. I think I need to lose myself in it. Only 'cause
music is just that damn awesome.
I think I should take up turntables again.. hmm..
- gmari .
Saturday, April 11, 2009
BACK AGAIN?
After years of not going on blogspot, I'm finally back again.
I was on a hiatus of blogging here and moved to LiveJournal.
After 3 years of letting it all out on LJ, I decide to go back.
Actually, I've decided that a week ago, but as you should know,
I'm incredibly lazy.
SO YES, the reason I decided to move my ass back here,
was because I'm a little bored on the LJ scene. I like
it and all, but I'm a bit bored. Remembering blogspot
days was.. hell, I don't even remember. When did I write
in this? 8 million years ago? UHK. Anyway, so I'm back
for the time being. Mind you, I'm keeping LJ, while
keeping this. Back to the computer fatass I am.
So, I will be on this frequently, no doubts.
If I get lazy to write, I'll post up a vlog,
aaaand. That's about it. I'm not really sure
what I wanna rant about today, so I'll leave
it for tomorrow. Peace and later days.
P.S. reminder: WATCH SNL.
- gmari .
I was on a hiatus of blogging here and moved to LiveJournal.
After 3 years of letting it all out on LJ, I decide to go back.
Actually, I've decided that a week ago, but as you should know,
I'm incredibly lazy.
SO YES, the reason I decided to move my ass back here,
was because I'm a little bored on the LJ scene. I like
it and all, but I'm a bit bored. Remembering blogspot
days was.. hell, I don't even remember. When did I write
in this? 8 million years ago? UHK. Anyway, so I'm back
for the time being. Mind you, I'm keeping LJ, while
keeping this. Back to the computer fatass I am.
So, I will be on this frequently, no doubts.
If I get lazy to write, I'll post up a vlog,
aaaand. That's about it. I'm not really sure
what I wanna rant about today, so I'll leave
it for tomorrow. Peace and later days.
P.S. reminder: WATCH SNL.
- gmari .
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