reoccurance

Usually, on fridays, I take a five hour nap. Which I just did.
I woke up from it like, 40 mins ago, so I'm a bit shaky.
I had this dream.. and it's always been the same one.
The same dream for more than a week now. Why? I'm not quite sure.
But it always ends the same. With a big fat nothing or question mark at the end.
This is something I'm probably going to write a note about on facebook..
and give out the whole dream on livejournal. It's the weird of a dream.
Well, it's not exactly weird, it's just been extremely repetitive.
I wake up with butterflies in my stomach and I feel weak-kneed.
It's a waste of a feeling because I know what's going to happen.
The same thing always happens in real life as oppose to the dreams.
In dreams, the wishes come true. In reality, nothing ever really works out.

Speaking of reality, today was a slow day for me.
It was kind of, 'all work and no play'. I went to
town after school, and I regret not going to Norma Reeds
to look for a nice yellow prom dress. Speaking of prom,
I have to buy my ticket this coming week, or I think I
might slap someone. I'm kinda of persistant on this without
being totally committed yet. In buying the ticket, I mean.
Hmm, well, I saw Darwin today. Haha, haven't in the longest
time. Like, we honestly planned to see eachother in like..
feb or march, and we see eachother NOW. How fortunate can
you get with time? WOW, another mindfucking idea!
..Oh let me tell you about that..

So on facebook, I'm writing notes about subjects that mindfuck you.
Mindfuck, meaning they're things you'd never think to think of and
when you think of it, you think hard and long trying to figure everything
out. It's really ironic in a way. Anyway, I'm trying to think of these
ideas so I can mindfuck my ownself and others along with me. Well,
that's half true, I just want people to start thinking outside the
box, because, well.. it's just that much more interesting.

I don't know what else to say but, my "mediocre attempts"
are way too mediocre to attempt (haha). Meaning that I don't
want to anymore. As my previous entry will tell you, I've given up.
It's not that I pussied out or anything, but that I've given this
alot of thought and finally came up with a solution. What's the
point in trying if it goes nowhere? But then I'm thinking.. should
I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements? WHOOT! Song reference!

Anyway.. this'll conclude my thoughts.
As do all my thoughts end with a musical reference
and you know what that means? It's time to listen to that song :)


- gmari .